I've always been heavy, except when i was a small child, I was normal then. So I don't think I've ever really been comfortable with wearing shorts or short skirts or anything like that. This was sort of difficult for me, especially in high school. When most girls had sizes that were in single digits, I wasn't comfortable enough with myself to wear anything but sweatpants and baggy shirts. Of course I went straight from the sloppy dress to gothic/emo dress. It was a weird transition. So I went through a lot of periods where I was too self conscious to wear anything that actually drew attention to me body in a positive light.
But then I graduated high school..
Honestly that was probably one of the best things that ever happened to me. I ended up going to college in the south where a larger body is normal and a lot of guys there found it more attractive. I was actually told by a lot of people that I was on the thin side, and while most freshman gain the Freshman 15, i actually ended up losing weight. This might have had something to do with the campus being on a giant hill and me not having a car. Either way, going to college definitely helped improve my image. Now I'm done trying to become a size 2. I've ditched the baggy clothes (for daily wear anyway, I still have my days) started wearing colors and styles that actually flatter, and I'm no longer so self conscious about eating in front of people. And I plan on keeping it that way.
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