I'm Scared...

We made plans today. And not just in the normal "we'll have a million dogs and love each other forever and ever" kind of way. You got approval from another girlfriend of mine (and her dogs I might add) and we were talking on the drive back. You told me you wanted us to have a place like her near the woods and the water and of course in the mountains like we always talked about. You said how you were planning to ask Mimi and Pop-pop about their cabin in the mountains. You know I think the place is beautiful and the only real problem is that it's so remote and the cabin was built in the early 70's so it's not really fit for a human to live in. Then you said you were thinking we could build a home up there and you could work to get indoor plumbing and all the modern things set up in it. Then when I reminded you how remote it was and how hard it would be to see friends and family, you didn't even miss a beat. You said "well what about the mountains that Frank and Mary live on?" and then you went on to say we could just as easily have an RV so we could come up to the cabin whenever we wanted. We made plans for what we would try to do with you trying to find more permanent work and me trying to finish school. Then I asked you if you had ever though of marriage. You told me that aside from taxes and living together, you had pretty much considered us married since last summer. I didn't know what to say. I love you and I had pretty much been thinking the same way. But I'm also terrified. It makes everything more real. I'm not used to that. I'm used to the relationships I had before you..date for a few months with no plans for commitment and no real serious talks like the ones we've had. That sounds silly since I've been with you for almost 2 years and have been out of high school for 3. But I'm still scared. I don't know if it's normal and it doesn't make me want a life with you any less. I just don't know how to sort out my own feelings I guess.