Don't know anymore

sometimes I'm just tired of it all. I consider not going back to a four year college when I finish getting my associates. Then I think of how no one in my family would allow it. I think of all the voices and (sometimes) well meaning advice coming in and hitting me so hard I think I'm going to bruise from it. I feel trapped. I want to get away. But I don't know where I can go where I would be able to escape into the silence. I want to just go up to the rooftop of the highest building and just let myself hang in the air. I want to feel the cold thin atmosphere rushing through my lungs and be alone. And sometimes I want to fall.